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Jezebel (part 2)

Best Served With: Violet by Daniel Caesar (acoustic Trinity Bellwoods version)

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=629mpleOMU0

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If–

Instantly,

Bloody sweat hurriedly ran to console my eyes,

The elated slippery floor called to me,

My world was spinning,

I could only see red,

 

If–

I stayed though,

I listened,

I heard and saw it all,

 

If–

Then I crept back downstairs,

Put out the candles,

Packed up the petals,

Prostrated out the porch,

And licked my bleeding wounds,

Cradled by the silent rain of the night.

Wailing soundless tears before wiping off

and soundly re-entering,

 

Then I would have nothing to say to you,

Because I saw the signs,

The lingering looks on passing males,

The constant lies and tall tales,

The open eyes when our expressions web,

The blank faces and touches in your net,

 

I saw them all and stayed

because I am your dog,

To keep, what can I say?

Dogs are faithful.

 

I still have the ring.

 

In its inky black case with rough layers,

It held our whispers of staunch prayers,

Of all the things together we would do,

Its jewels were meant to be soothsayers,

Predicting the love I would have for you,

 

The might of life I would share that night,

In rain or sun, dark or light,

But my life lost might with what I saw that night,

My sun turned rain,

Darkness forever,

Darkness again.

 

 

I know one day though;

 

The window will reflect you falling at night,

I’ll see my reflection covering your eyes,

I’ll open my jaws; it’s a dog’s ecstasy,

Your lies and temptation will vanish with me.

 

Want is pain and greed is want

So greed is pain, greed is pain,

Want is pain and green is want,

So greed is pain, greed is pain

Jezebel (part 1)

Best Served with: Violet by Daniel Caesar (acoustic Trinity Bellwoods version)

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=629mpleOMU0

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If on our bed,

You spread your legs,

And hold your tits as you bounce,

 

If–

In a trance you tap,

To the rhythm of his claps

With a twisted face; he slaps,

 

If–

You smile in surrender,

Eyes rolled half-way to their tips

Delicate brown hands squeezing

the beige out of the sheets,

 

If–

Then he lifts you up,

Pulls you back like superman,

Latching on like a leech,

 

If–

The windows testify,

I can’t defy

But he defiled,

You don’t deny,

 

If—

He fucked you senseless,

On a rainy Friday night,

Where the breeze kissed the roof,

Who guarded red eyes in the skies?

What purple, black and blue reside?

 

If—

When he was done,

He left you naked on the bed,

Drinking used condoms from your hand,

Paralysed by joy in your head,

 

If After–

You put on the over-sized stained blue shirt I gave you,

Fighting with the sheets because you heard me come in,

 

I’m early,

Footsteps thicker than usual,

Louder than usual,

Slower than usual–

 

Turn that chair

fix the bed

hide the man

wash your face

Creep downstairs

greet your man…

stall him in that place,

 

If after that you can still kiss me on that very night,

Then of course I cannot share with you my plight,

 

If the–

 

Truth was,

That night I came back early for you,

You told me what your wish was,

I tried my best to make it come true,

And I did,

 

If–

I had wanted to surprise you,

I lit our lavender and periwinkle candles,

Stuffed the parlour with petals; more than it could handle,

I had bought what you wanted; those special sandals,

In a suave grey paper bag that I constantly fondled,

They were saddled comfortably next to the ring,

 

 

If–

Then I heard a rocking upstairs,

And the ink of doubt splattered,

Over the canvas of my heart,

 

If–

As I crept upstairs,

My skin adjusted and aligned,

Cursing in discomfort,

My legs cracked like ancient pillars,

Pulling lead up with each step taken,

 

If–

My hands shrivelled and blossomed repeatedly,

Trembling moist children scratching the sides of my neck,

As Nervousness ravaged my white hot insides,

As the rocking got louder,

 

If–

I spotted that crack in the door,

The one you always told me to fix,

Alas Fate and Man can never mix,

My clothes were ringing angrily,

Irritated by my heart’s call,

I snuck a peek